I know it’s not right…but…
Am I the only one that wishes I could fast forward & or rewind in my life?
Am I the only one that wants to know everything that is going to happen?
Am I the only one that when I want a certain change in my life, I want to see it happen at the snap of my fingers?
So, maybe it’s a
little evident I need to work on my patience. I like to tell myself it’s more of a personality trait that I have. I love planning & being organized. Therefore, when I feel that I do not have full confidence of what is going to take place in my life I get extremely anxious. It’s a rather annoying habit of mine.
For instance, my birthday is in less than a month & so far everything that I have put on my list..I somehow talk myself into ordering it for myself that day.
WHY CAN’T I JUST WAIT!?
I love love surprises but if I know that a surprise is coming my way it kills me! I just need to know what it is! Props, to anyone that has ever successfully surprised me! That reminds me of one time in particular that I was surprised. I was in 8th grade…I had a feeling that my mom was going to throw me a surprise party. It was killing me! I needed to know if I was right & if I was right…when was it going to happen & how! I needed to know all the details! Sooo… who to turn to but my sister, Ashley. I knew I could squeeze it out of her! She’s notorious for getting all giggly when she is trying hide something. When I asked her if my mom was planning a surprise party, she responded with a smirky, “No, why would you think that?” I KNEW IT! I tried & tried to get more details out of her but she wouldn’t budge. I was so cautious & thought I would know when the surprise party would take place. I was wrong…my mom succeeded!!!
The morning of my birthday I had school. I had gotten up a little bit earlier than normal & on our way to school my mom made me stop at the little breakfast diner with her. She told me to run inside with her because her friend was in there & she had a birthday gift for me. WHAT was I thinking?! I should have known! She caught me off guard because I am not a morning person, so I was not thinking!
Needless to say, she did a great job. All of my friends were in there & I was completely surprised. It was awesome.